YES!! Finally the holiday is here!! Its the first holiday we had after entering Polythecnic. It had been 2 months that i am in NP, and i guess we had all get used of the poly life which make us to different from secondary school?

After struggling for the last few weeks of school( as all the due dates of the projects were on the last 2 weeks), its finally HOLIDAY! Although we had to complete  a lot of projects within this holiday, i still feel excited as i could finally give myself a good rest. Its a good time to recharge myself for the school after holiday as more projects is on their way to welcome me. =’(..haha..

The 1st trip that i had in my holidays is to the ZOO! It had been 9 years i guess since i last visited the zoo( as the last time was a school trip when i was in primary 3). I were very excited when i got into the zoo, everything seemed so familiar as the environment of the zoo did not changed much. The only thing that changed is the numbers of animals. 

I remembered that the zoo used to have a lot animals but now, every different kind of species only left with 2 or 3 animals. It was really sad too see that the animals are getting fewer n fewer. I am so worried that the animals that we used to see now, will be extinct when it comes to the next generation.

I was very happy that i saw the white tigers which are very rare now. But i feel so sad for them when i saw them laying on the big rock doing nothing. As they should belong to the nature, they should be running freely in the big grass patch, hunting and preying for their own food. But now, what they can only do is to stroll around the small area that were given to them. Yah.. you could say that at least they got their meals everyday on time, but what would you feel when you got nothing more to do except to lay on the ground and wait for food? Wouldn’t you think, that kind of life is boring? Actually, not only tigers, a lot of the other animals too, were trapped inside a cage or a standard place alone. Its really lonely and boring. Although i enjoyed looking at them but i still sad for them as i feel that they lost their freedom. But, who knows, maybe they like their lifestyle now=)

Walking under the hot sun in zoo was really tiring but i do enjoyed a lot as a step nearer to the nature, haha.

Holidays are still going on, i hope i can get my works all done and relax myself before the holidays end. =)

I must keep myself ready for the new challenges i have to face after the holidays!! 

* I GOT MY DREAMS REALIZED IN THIS HOLIDAY *

While I was sitting in the bus to school, i suddenly thought of something that i think i can never get the answer and that is the different perspective of human beings.

I start to wonder if the things we see are different? For example, colors. Is the color i saw as pink same as yours? Although the color of the grass is green, the color of the sea is blue but is that color of my green and blue, same as yours or the others? Isn’t it interesting? Is it something that we never known as whenever i took out a red color item, the color that we named or known it as red is different? Is there a probability for this?

I then continue to wonder to the appearance of a person. Is the appearance we have for that particular person the same? That may be a reason behind why do some people think that some girls or guys are good in looking while the others do not agree with it.

Human being do have different perspective of views for a particular event. Sometimes when something bad occurs, it may seems to be very unlucky and you may grief over it. However, just changed your perspective of view and you will realize the outcome may not be as bad as you expect to be.

I often trained myself to see things in different perspective in order to prepare myself to tackle the problems i always faced. As sometimes, you will resolved the problem when you see the problem in another angle of view. Sometimes, things may not go how you want and there is no point for you to be sad or angry about it as you can never changed the facts, so only thing you can do is just to accept it. And the easiest way for you to accept something is to changed your views on it. This is also one way to make your life easier=)

I went to my secondary class gathering today and it was really fun. We meet up at Seoul Garden and ate for the whole afternoon.. haha..

I was really glad that 22 out of 36 of them make an effort to come to the gathering( at least the number passed half of its amount) its really hard to get everyone together, so i am contented enough with 22 ex-classmates.

When we settled down in the Seoul Garden, i examine each of them carefully, some had changed so differently and some were still the same. But there sure be one thing had changed for the boys, their HAIR LENGTH!! ( i really don’t understand why boys like to keep their hair long after they graduate from secondary school) 

Chatted with them about the school life now. Some of us went to polytechnic, some ITE and some repeated secondary school, yet we all still missed the days we had at past and we all agreed that we loved and missed that class. ^^

Flashing back, i remembered lots of stupid things that we had done together.

As we were the last class of express and our class are considered the “bad” ones, teachers always pin-point us and some students in other classes will also dislike us( its true!). However, we weren’t bothered by them, we still continue to do what we think its right and maybe fun. I remembered when we were secondary4, our classroom was at 2nd floor at the beginning of the year but just 3 weeks later, because of some problems, the school decided to switch us to 4th floor instead of the other express classes. We were damn angry about it as we think that its really unfair, but no matter how we object and debate, the school still insist in changing our classroom. So during the last day at the 2nd floor classroom, we decide to do something to show our unhappiness and take revenge…..

ta dah.. we handed our classroom to the other class in this manner.. hahahahaha!! although the next day we were all disciplined by our vice-principal but we never regretted doing it at all. ^^ (because its really fun=X)

I still remembered there’s one time when the other 3 express classes of chinese students can watch a skit while only our class will be staying back in the classroom and have normal lessons, we were super unhappy about it, and the reason the HOD of chinese gave us is because due to the constraint of spaces, our class who doesn’t have anyone performing shall not go, but we were not satisfied with all these stupid craps..haha =X.. so we went to bargain with our chinese teacher to bargain with the HOD. My chinese teacher cannot stand us and therefore send me as representative for our class to tell the HOD that our class wanna go too(i don’t know why i am so unlucky to be the chosen one, stupid! haha) 

Although my chinese teacher say i shall go alone but end up half of the class followed me(phew, who will want to fight the battle alone, haha) i told the HOD that although our class don’t have anyone performing but still, its unfair for us that we cannot get to see the skit, my classmates then all agreed by saying “yah lo yah lo” , this makes the HOD so irritated that she let us go in the end. haha! we were happy with the decision she made.. haha!

There is really a lot of stupid things that we do together and although its stupid, its fun! haha..

I really missed the time we have together and the reunion today makes me feel as if i am still in secondary4 and that feeling is great! Times flies and now we are all in different paths of life but i hope that we will all be successful in our own different ways.

2007:

2008:

* I really missed the time^^*

I was watching the news of the china sichuan earthquake, and i felt really sad about over 71,000 deaths and over 220,000 injured caused by the earthquake. I saw building crashed, rescue team rescuing those trapped and buried under the demolished buildings and thousands of people grieving over their beloved ones’ death.  And the amount of this scenes increases as days passed one by one. 

Today, i read up a article about a mum who uses her body to protect her 3 months old infant from the falling ceiling. When the rescue team saw them, the mum was died but the baby was still alive and they found a handphone inside the clothes of the baby. There was a text message that said(i translated it to english) : My dear baby, whether you live on or not, you must always remember that, mummy always love you.

I heart aches upon reading this news, that mummy sacrificed her life to save her baby. I believe at that moment of time, that mummy was only concerned about her baby’s life and nothing else, not even herself. In fact, a lot of the residents sacrifice themselves to save others, for example, a teacher also sacrifice himself to save 4 students from the falling ceiling. I felt a sense of warmth in those articles as it shows me that the world are still filled with love and not selfishness.

Upon seeing all these news about the earthquake in china, i really felt that life is so helpless. Imagine yourself waking up in the morning, preparing to go school and on the way to school, earthquake struck before you can do anything. The next moment you saw darkness and  you no longer get to see the sun rise of the next day. Can you sense the weakness of life as i do now? Life seemed to be so weak and helpless from this event. Its just a tick of time, and they are gone forever.

To what i feel, in this event, the worst thing that can happen is not that you are dead, but its that you can only see the innocent people dying one by one and you just couldn’t do anything to help or save them.

From the news, i saw parents yelling over the dead bodies of their children. Children crying, running around,  looking for their parents. Thousands of student buried alive. Thousands of innocent lives taken away. And now, at this point of time, the rates of these scenes continues to rise.

This incident really make me learnt a lesson, and that is to cherished every moments of your life. Who knows what will happen the next minute, i may not be still sitting in front of my MacBook and continue typing or maybe i will just fall asleep and die later. Life are so unpredictable and we got nothing to do to stop it from happening.

Maybe we can count ourselves lucky to live in Singapore, a nature disaster free country? And because of this factor, we tend to take things for granted. We will not experienced events like earthquakes, which will make us also had a feel of the “helpless” life, and exactly how precious is our life.

Do those innocents people deserved to die, or is it okay that so many died? Ask yourself truthfully, and you will get your answers.

I may not be able to do anything to help those innocents people but i sincerely hope that all these events will get over soon, just like how rainbow appears in the sky after the heavy rain.

* Cherish your life and everything you owed before you had no more chance *

Today is mothers’ day and i just had a dinner with my family. We sit together and chit chatted for quite a long time. it had been a long time since we sit together like this, as my parents were both working for long hours. 

Sitting just opposite of my mum, i suddenly realized that she had aged a lot. She worked more than 12 hours a day and had very less sleeping time.

My mum was born from a rich family, she rarely do house chores when she was young. When she married to my dad, my dad was still a  successful businessman. But when i was the age of 6, my dad business flunked completey and my mum had no choice but to start a completely new life.  

I witness my mum’s changes this few years. From a woman that will doll herself up and enjoy her life, to one that now only knows how to work and never know how to relax herself. My mum work as coffee maker, so her hands often got scalded by the hot water and the skin of her fingers were mostly cracked as she never apply any medicine when her fingers were scalded. My mum really suffered and went through a lot, much more than any one can imagine.

I remembered once, when i was in secondary two, my mum blamed me for something which i was not in fault at all. I got really angry when people accused me so i scolded my mum back. And when she went on with a “non-stop” nagging, i slammed my hand phone on the floor just to vent my impatience and hope to stop her nagging.My mum got really shocked by my reaction and she started welling, saying how much hardship had she suffered through just to brought us up. I cried too, but at that time, i didn’t console my mum, yet i locked myself in the room.

Flashing back on that moment, i felt really regretted with what i done. That really hurts my mum’s heart as i never forget my mum’s swollen eyes the next morning. I understand that my mum really suffered a lot, but yet sometimes, i just couldn’t tolerate her nagging. 

As i grew older each day, i learn how to tackle with my mum’s “non-stop” nagging. Whenever she started to nag, i will joke with her and make her laugh, then she will forget what she wanna nag about. haha! This also make me learn that, violent would not solve everything. 

I also understand that, as i grew older, mu mum grew older too. Her body condition will also get older as each day passed, but no matter how many things had changed in this world, i can promise that there is one thing that never changed.

And that is her love to this family. She always tell us that, having to become as family members in this life is all fated, so we have to cherish each other as we wouldn’t know whether we will still meet next life. I never forget this sentence as it really makes me cherish everyone around me. =)

Since today is mothers’ day, i shall then wished my mum and all the mummies in this world to stay happy and healthy forever! ^^V

* Mum, HAPPY MOTHERS’ DAY! *

My little cousin came my house yesterday. While she was watching kid central, i sat beside her and watched. While she was giggling way with the cartoon “Totally spies”, i looked at her and had a feeling of “why is she laughing away when i don’t even understand the content of the cartoon.”

Yah.. i do still watch cartoon now but i just feel that the new generation of cartoon really don’t interest me as i felt that its really kind of boring. My little cousin then run about after she watched the cartoon. Watching her by the side, i start to wonder, how long it had been since i had this kind of life too?

Days passed and i grew older by each second i guess. I start to miss the times i had when i was still a child. Everything seemed just so happy and simple. I can just cry and laugh whenever i want. I don’t have to bother about what people around me think of me as it’s really that simple being a child. In a children world, there is no lies, no hypocrites but all truth.

But as time goes by, things eventually changes without you noticing it.I start to get a taste of the “real world” as i grow up. I start to know that the world is not as wonderful as i thought it was when I were still young. As things are getting more and more advanced, people yearn to upgrade their life. They hunt to be the top, therefore, people now care more about status and money which then will consider as winning. 

And in order to be the top, they are willing to do whatever things that costs. I know that people will do things like stabbing people’s back, lying to each other and even sacrificing others to complete their “game” and just to win. 

Sometimes, i really wonder, why do people had to harm others just because they want to “win”? Does status and money that important that they can betrayed their morale? Why can’t everyone just live simply and stay happy? I once work as a promoter to promote facial salon vouchers, sometimes when the customers told me that they had no money to afford the voucher, i will let them go and wouldn’t “force” them anymore. But i get scolded one day. My supervisor told me not be so naive and get cheated by those aunties. He told me that those aunties had the money just that they don’t wanna buy it. Yah.. he can say that its because the aunties don’t wanna buy it then what for we force them to buy? He even told me that i will understand it when i grow up because thats the real world. My colleague then also join in to reprimand me that i should at least get the aunties to put some deposit, even though they don’t wish to go for the facial treatment as there is where my pay comes from. Their scolding ends with ” Don’t be so stupid next time!”

I feel like crying that time as i remembered now. What naive and stupid? Its like, what for u force those aunties to put deposit when they already say they don’t want and they had no money. Some aunties rejected me because they say they are not interested in it and i accepted it. Some aunties then rejected me as they say they really don’t have the money, i believe them but what’s wrong with it when i chose to believed them? I don’t believe in forcing them will do any good to them as i feel like i was cheating their feeling. And what’s the meaning of the real world? I guessed its just his selfishness to make him so idiot!( I’s still very angry about it..haha!!) I felt really guilty for the aunties, so i quit that job immediately after working for the minimum workdays.

If the real world is about cheating or forcing people in order to gain credits, then i guess i don’t wish to grow up. Can things just stayed the same even after i grew up? I hope my world wouldn’t get so complicated. Although i understand i do changed as time passed, i wished i change for the better but not changed to be a hypocrite and become selfish. 

I still choose to believe what i think its right. I don’t care whether i will get scolded for being naive or stupid again. Though i don’t know what will be my future like, i wished people and things around me can stay just so simple yet happy=)

* I DON’T WISH TO GROW UP TO BE HYPOCRITES *

1.   John fought strenuously in the badminton match with his partner. They were under a crucial situation as they were on deuce with their opponent, whoever gained the last point wins.  Watching the shuttlecock falling on their side, John dived to save it. A loud roar of applause was heard.

2.   “ Are you sure this is alright, Wayne?”  Apple asked Wayne when they were waiting to board the plane to Australia. “We had no choice, our parents forbid us to be together, so we had to leave here.”  Wayne wiped off the tears on Apple’s face and hugged her.

3.   Jeremy shivered when he was dismembering Mary’s body; he then packed the different parts of the body to separate bags. He broke down completely when he looked at his hand covering with bloodstains. He shouldn’t have lost his control when Mary nagged at him, accusing him having an affair.

4.   The doctor had just announced that Ginny’s grandpa’s condition was unstable and the following 24 hours would be critical for him. “ Please hang on grandpa!” Ginny welled, holding on to her grandpa’s hand tightly. Ginny’s grandpa smiled back to her sweetly and he slowly closed up his eyes.

5.   William buried himself inside his blanket, with his eyes shut tightly and his body shivering. He doesn’t dare to check out what was happening to the windows that was flickering vigorously in the middle of the still night. “Just…just sleep William!” He tired to calm himself inside his heart.

While i was watching my television program, i heard my sister mumbling to herself  which sound something like ” e, ah ,o”.. i thought my sis was learning what alien language so i went to ask her what she was chanting at and she told me she is learning dialect and other races’ languages as her course need her to learn that( she studies occupation therapy, thats why she need to learn a lot of languages in order to interact with different kinds and races of patient) .. 

My sister asked me to help her with her practice, so i will act like patients and she will start to use different version of languages to ask me questions.. My sister spoke malay, cantonese, hokkien, teochew, and many more kinds of dialect to me, but to me everything that comes out from her mouth was like @$#%^&@%#&…. words that i don’t understand..haha!!

 After the whole practice, i was really amazed by this “language” thing.. In my world, there is only either chinese or english, but come to think about it, languages that i capable with, people in the another side of the world or even the stranger that just walked passed me may not understand at all.. Its really amazing, just imagine a simple word like “love” , having the same meaning has different ways of sounding..

I used to work  as salesgirl in  shoe shop, i once served a group of japanese girls and our communication broke down! They had problems telling what color and what size they want and i also had problems telling them what’s the price of the shoes.. so we sound like “eh eh eh”, with hands pointing there and here..haha.. At that time point of time, i really wonder what’s the reason for we, being the same human beings living in the same big blue planet, yet speaking different languages, living under different cultures and lifestyle and some of us even shared different tone color of skin=)  Thats the point that i always wished to know but i will never get to understand it.. 

Maybe this had to do with our forefathers, who created the languages themselves as they live in different parts of this world which passed down generations by generations.. There are a lot of amazing things in this big blue planet that sometime its unexplainable! >.<

Suddenly, i feel like learning lots of different languages so i can communicate with everyone in this word! haha! ^^V!

For the first few days of school, i felt rather lonely as it is the first time that i was completely thrown in a unfamiliar environment without any of my best buddies..I felt rather helpless as i really don’t know who can i turn to when i have problems… Sweetly, i received messages from my best buddies everyday, encouraging me not to give up so easily.. Whenever i received their messages i felt really happy and touched as at that moment, only can i felt i am wanted and not just a girl walking inside NgeeAnn poly that anyone would ever care about…haha!

after the first week of school, I had one gathering on saturday with my best classmates and another gathering with my best buddies on monday..

both sessions made me feel real great till now.. as everything seemed to be so familiar..

we sit together and eat, just like how we did last time.. we ordered our food and when our food were served, we will always “sample” each other food.. commenting who is nicer and vice versa… Everything really feels very familiar and frankly speaking, i like that feeling! Its was like a memory to me, that i shared with them..

we chit chatted after finishing our food, and amazingly, we chatted for 4 hours without stopping..haha.. thats really cool! we chatted on our different poly lifestyles and we even start to chat about stupid things that we did last time in secondary school life.. 

That really triggers my memories of my secondary school life.. and i really missed my time back then..  things that i thought i had longed to forget, flashed back into my mind vividly again, clear and still in my mind replaying.. There are always good and bad occasions in life, but i am really thankful to my friends that i do not have much bad memories about my secondary school life.. pictures that flashed through my mind are all so sweet and touched.. i remembered every single details of the time we shared together.. i never regretted joining yishun secondary school.. though in a lot of people’ mind, YSS may be a infamous school.

i agreed to it in one point of view but in another point of view, i loved and was greatful to that school as it held me and my friends together.. and created who i am now=)

Who knows, people from different places were put to meet together, survive together, trust each other, understand each other and end up, live hardly without each other! We undergo that procedure and they turn out to be my true friends who i really trust and love.. >.<

I don’t wish to lost any one of them! Therefore i will treasure them as if they were diamonds.. hehe.. 

We shared common memories and it is irreplaceable by anything!

*”"*++*”"*+Friends Forever+*”"*++*”"*+

1. Mary is riding down the slope…  in the middle of the slope, there is a man in black raising his hand up, trying to block her path..

2. Jonathan is walking towards his parents’ room… a creepy scratching sound can be heard from the room, big drops of sweat rolled down Jonathan’s cheek..

3. Jane is combing her hair.. her hair falls off as she comb, she quickly throw her comb aside and dash to the mirror..

4. Wayne is laying on his bed..  he toss and turn on the bed, still had his eyes open wide and big..

5. Fabien is standing on the stage.. he stood rooted to the stage and big drops of sweat rolled down his cheek when he saw the audiences in front of him..

6. Willam is playing his computer games.. he stared at the computer screen with his eyes wide-open, hitting the keyboard with lighting speed..

7. Brian is walking on the way to school.. he saw a groups of people surrounded a girl, there are lots of discussions and murmurs..

8. Jack is fighting with John..   Jack gave a hard punch on John’s face, john yelled with pain and drops of blood rolled down john’s face. John frowned and covers his injuries with his hand, trying to stop the blood from flowing..

9. Kelly is washing her dishes.. a big fat cockroach popped out from one corner, kelly yelled on top of her voice and throws the cup that is on her hand to the direction of the cockroach..

10. Marianda is watching television program .. she lied lazily on the sofa, hugging a bag of tidbits in her arms, she laughed loudly with mouth full of tidbits..

11. Peter’s mum has been nagging on him.. he could not tolerate anymore so he stormed to his door, slamming the door real hard with his full strength..

12. Jay is swimming in the pool.. a loud scream of help can be heard at the middle of the pool, there is a person struggling inside the water, gasping for air..